April 29th ...... 10:05
So fucking nervous. Or am I? Took some nice chillpills so at least I'm better than when I woke up this morning.
Going to my old school to talk to the music teacher about practicing on the drums there.. Like what times and shit like that. And oh, I'm gonna practice there now.. Today.. With the school full of snooty nosy kids..
GAH!
Oh well, guess I can pull down the curtains and things like that. I mean it is one thing if I had taken more than a practice lesson and my paper with the tracks wasn't gone.. good thing though is that I memorized the whole damn thing, thank fuck!
But nah.. it's gonna go well.. I think. At least I think that's what my chillpill affected brain is trying to tell me, haha.
Now some more VOJ and some GIA to get me in the right state of mind. Wish me luck or something..
Going to my old school to talk to the music teacher about practicing on the drums there.. Like what times and shit like that. And oh, I'm gonna practice there now.. Today.. With the school full of snooty nosy kids..
GAH!
Oh well, guess I can pull down the curtains and things like that. I mean it is one thing if I had taken more than a practice lesson and my paper with the tracks wasn't gone.. good thing though is that I memorized the whole damn thing, thank fuck!
But nah.. it's gonna go well.. I think. At least I think that's what my chillpill affected brain is trying to tell me, haha.
Now some more VOJ and some GIA to get me in the right state of mind. Wish me luck or something..
April 18th ...19:29
And the whole world praised the now grown up caged and naked ugly duckling.
C'mon then, take your turns, I aint going nowhere; how could I? Why would I?
A swan with a lack of interior design, is that what we're talking about?
Well you can have the pearlywhite feathers, make a nice lil pillow off 'em cause I don't want them.
Don't be shy, c'mon closer... stroke my feathers, ripp 'em off, stick your finger inside me, feel my insides and then tell me if you can taste emptiness or maybe it's just yesterdays trash
C'mon then, take your turns, I aint going nowhere; how could I? Why would I?
A swan with a lack of interior design, is that what we're talking about?
Well you can have the pearlywhite feathers, make a nice lil pillow off 'em cause I don't want them.
Don't be shy, c'mon closer... stroke my feathers, ripp 'em off, stick your finger inside me, feel my insides and then tell me if you can taste emptiness or maybe it's just yesterdays trash
April 15th .. 20:07
Bitter Pill!
Ok, English-time! Don't know what it is but when I'm this ecstatic English is the only language I feel I can express myself in, it may or may not have something to do with the more gnarly ways to swear your motherfucking ass off, HAHA!
Right now I'm listening to Mötley Crüe- all the albums from Too fast for love to Carnival of sins on shuffle and reading old dairy entries from a Mr.N. Sixx- Ye, I'm a dorky demented rockaholic, deal with it.
I am laughing my ass off most of the time, reading this guys stuff just put a hugeass grin on my face. Here's some treats for ya that cracked me up good:
From 2001-isc hor something like that
Damn, this is a good glimpse of what I wish my future family will be like
And this just, hahaha..
I'm loving it and I'm not even through half of it yet. This may seem boring to you but I don't really give a crap; to me it's fucking hysterical.
Listening to Helter Skelter now and the drum track in that song just takes me over totally, even my breathing adjusts to its rhythms. God know a good drumbeat makes this KittyKat purrrrr.
In not so great news, ah well everything is relative, I finally got my fucking rag today. Why do I share this very clean and nice info with you you may wonder?
Well, I've been freaking out the last couple of weeks since I was two weeks late and how much I may want a family in the future I do NOT want a lil freak in my oven just yet.
Feels like a weight off my shoulders and I felt kinda happy for the first time in ages this morning.. Think I'm gonna look up the time for sunrise tomorrow and set my alarm for it. It was too long since I last saw that yellow glowing ball of gas rise, sure I've seen D rise up from his bed on rare occasions but there's a difference. I mean.. The guy isn't exactly yellow. As for the glowing part he has more of this sweaty, fat-guy gleam to him and I for one wouldn't call that a sunrise.
So let's see..
I'm all hyped up,
I'm leaking some red stuff (No, not strawberry-lemonade),
I want to go out in the night for a walk but unfortunately I'm in a bit of a bitchy mood caused by stomach pains and a cool healing beer is nowhere to be seen.
Think I'll just get up tomorrow, watch the sunrise and wait for the Liquor store to open and go buy me a beer and then take a walk in this lil shithole excuse for a town.
Now more Mötley and more old diary entries.. and maybe a smoke.
Quotes that got to me:
Right now I'm listening to Mötley Crüe- all the albums from Too fast for love to Carnival of sins on shuffle and reading old dairy entries from a Mr.N. Sixx- Ye, I'm a dorky demented rockaholic, deal with it.
I am laughing my ass off most of the time, reading this guys stuff just put a hugeass grin on my face. Here's some treats for ya that cracked me up good:
From 2001-isc hor something like that
Damn, this is a good glimpse of what I wish my future family will be like
And this just, hahaha..
I'm loving it and I'm not even through half of it yet. This may seem boring to you but I don't really give a crap; to me it's fucking hysterical.
Listening to Helter Skelter now and the drum track in that song just takes me over totally, even my breathing adjusts to its rhythms. God know a good drumbeat makes this KittyKat purrrrr.
In not so great news, ah well everything is relative, I finally got my fucking rag today. Why do I share this very clean and nice info with you you may wonder?
Well, I've been freaking out the last couple of weeks since I was two weeks late and how much I may want a family in the future I do NOT want a lil freak in my oven just yet.
Feels like a weight off my shoulders and I felt kinda happy for the first time in ages this morning.. Think I'm gonna look up the time for sunrise tomorrow and set my alarm for it. It was too long since I last saw that yellow glowing ball of gas rise, sure I've seen D rise up from his bed on rare occasions but there's a difference. I mean.. The guy isn't exactly yellow. As for the glowing part he has more of this sweaty, fat-guy gleam to him and I for one wouldn't call that a sunrise.
So let's see..
I'm all hyped up,
I'm leaking some red stuff (No, not strawberry-lemonade),
I want to go out in the night for a walk but unfortunately I'm in a bit of a bitchy mood caused by stomach pains and a cool healing beer is nowhere to be seen.
Think I'll just get up tomorrow, watch the sunrise and wait for the Liquor store to open and go buy me a beer and then take a walk in this lil shithole excuse for a town.
Now more Mötley and more old diary entries.. and maybe a smoke.
Quotes that got to me:
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Edit: Found some more quotes from Sixx's old entries that I fucking LOVE!
